Laments of My Soul

The laments of my soul

Are apparently too much to bear

My pain is private pain

Because no one seems to care

They say that God feels my pain

Then why doesn't he take it away

Doesn't he worry

That my faith is going astray

All areas of my life are being torn apart

everything's ripping at the seams

I mourn each and every day

For the loss of my once reachable dreams

My dreams of a happy future

Of a family so perfect

Now every time I put on a smile

My happiness is just counterfeit

Doesn't God want me to be happy

To find joy in my life

Now all joy does is mock me

And cause me so much strife

Everyone else is laughing

So why can't I

Water falls from my eyes

But my soul's river has run dirt dry